Torn

My latest update had to do with our homeschool progress.  I made mention of our harder days and the complaints to do school.  I may not have been as forth coming as I should have been.  I love homeschooling, I make a huge effort to put together lessons for the kids and implement them.  The kids on the other hand, are big naysayers.  They think that homeschooling is all about fun and games.  Never having to do work or be disciplined.  The last 2 weeks have been incredibly difficult getting them to really focus and be motivated to do their work. 

Not to mention the massive amount of fighting going on.  They spend every waking hour together, I get that they will fight, but it's wearing on me.  I can't take it.  They need to be away from each other because not only are they getting on my nerves, but they are getting on each others nerves as well.  Annika has taken to calling Bianca and Bennett "sooooo annoying" multiple times a day.  Ugh, I get it, they all can have their moments where they are annoying as heck. 

So we are at a crossroads.  Brian and I have been discussing our options and perhaps putting them back into school.  It's something I'm pretty sad about, but need to think clearly enough to know what is best for all of us.  I'm trying to put a positive spin on all of it, the kids will get to see their friends, not miss out on birthday parties and other social events.  They will still get a good education and I can still be involved.  I have nothing against our school district, I just loved having them home with me (I realize that sounds selfish).  Perhaps it's time to let them go and be kids, let them explore the world away from me (a mom's worst nightmare I swear)!

Hey, maybe I can even expand my business once Bennett's off to Kindergarten, who knows.  I'll have a lot of time on my hands, that's for sure!

So, what are your thoughts?  I could use any advice right now.